Posts by Bianca Johnson
Mother’s Day 2020
The end of a motherhood chapter I’ve been struggling for the last week or two about my current bottle of body wash coming to an end. It’s a weird thing to be struggling with I know. But what I’ve learned about grief and anxiety, is that the thing you’re fixated on is probably representative. In…Read More
A year of Grief
It’s a year today that I lost my 8th pregnancy. Lost is a bit of a weird word, since we chose to end the pregnancy based on medical advice. The grief is as real as any baby loss. The lost dreams, hopes and ideals. It’s probably even harder to deal with because there is the…Read More
What it’s like when the Ultrasound goes badly.
One of the mom groups I’m on was discussing a private sonographer and maternal-fetal medicine specialist (MFM) the other night and I saw them both when I had my diagnosis for Baby Bryce. The discussion brought up all the memories for me of when my appointment for my 12 week ultrasound went badly. I realised there’s…Read More
Appeal – Training
At the Baby Bryce Foundation I want to ensure that I am doing things as above board as possible. I’m spending a lot of time connecting with the people I know already working in NPOs, as well as doing a lot of research in my time off. I know I made some mistakes when I…Read More
1 Month post termination – Why I can’t move on!
It’s been a month. 31 days. Just over 4 weeks since my pregnancy was over. Somehow I thought I’d feel both better and worse than what I do now. I knew I wouldn’t have moved on though. I can’t move on. I know I’m fairly slow to process grief. It took me months to fully…Read More